Habits are a double edged sword. They set a routine that people need for the most part, but there are those that can condemn a person to failure. The habit that really gets me in all areas of my life is my insane tendency to want to start things over and over again. I can’t seem to stick with it, especially if I feel like I’ve made an error of some kind that needs to rectified. And the only way to do so is to trash everything and start from scratch.
Does this make me a perfectionist? Or am I just doubting my abilities? Or perhaps I’m just full of regrets that I project through my work?
The answer could be yes to all or none. I don’t know, but I know that I need to break this horrible habit. I see it most outstandingly in my way for blogging which is pretty much nonexistent. And lately, I’ve been wishing for Hermione Granger’s time turner so that I could redo various events in my life. Unfortunately, that isn’t possible and I’ll have to move forward with my life and stop trying to fix my past.
The first step is for me to NOT restart this blog. I don’t care what happens, I will not shut this thing down again. Second, I will stop moping about the failures and mistakes in my life and just live. And hopefully the third and final step will be to be happy with my life.
Three steps. Oversimplified perhaps? Probably, but if I make it complicated then I’ll probably run and the point is for me to stop running backwards. Stepping forward, well more like crawling, but it is a start. A start that I’ll celebrate.
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