Just Want to Scream

Ever feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders? That if you stopped to take a breath then that action would cause all the chaotic load of stress to tumbledown? Crushing you until you were nothing but a grease spot? Yeah. Can you tell that I’m having one of those days?

Sometimes screaming is just the perfect solution. No, not screaming at someone, but to just let out all your frustrations. Unfortunately, I’m at work so screaming is not permitted. Instead I have taken on the great task of scribbling holes through used pads of paper. Quite relieving. Really. You should try it.

Now, I know I’ve said before that I’m great with stress. I am. The good kind. There’s also the bad kind that makes you get a hole in your stomach from too much coffee. That’s called an ulcer. I’m not quite there yet, but I can feel the seams coming undone. And thankfully, the holidays are just around the season. Sadly, they fall squarely on the weekend so no additional days off.

Yeah. I know, go cry me a river.

Hm… I wonder if I tried really hard that the silencing spell from Harry Potter would work. That would be heavenly. I would cast it all around. Or maybe I’ll just go in search of an evil witch so I could be turned into a toad? A toad’s life doesn’t sound all that bad. Minus the possibility of getting run over by a car. I could do that just as well as a person.

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Fork in the Road

I need to get a new job. This isn’t a new realization. I hate my job because of the work environment, but that’s not all. There is no opportunity for upward momentum at my current employment and dammit, I’m too young to be stuck.

So what are my options?

Plan A. Build tenure, whether it be six  months or a year, and then shove my resume in everyone’s faces.

Plan B. Go back to school and get my second bachelors and/or masters degree.

Plan C. Do all of the above (whilst avoiding the white padded cell).

My personal preference? Plan C. I’ve been thinking about it for awhile and talked with a few friends who are doing exactly that. It’s tough, but I think if I stagger out my classes, as recommended, I’ll be able to survive. Granted that this will probably mean that I’ll have less of a social life and even less online presence (pfft! probably not), but at least I’ll be doing something about my future. Yes? Yes!

Now that I’ve got an idea in mind, I took it to my parents, not for permission, but more as an FYI, when my dad sticks out his pinky finger with a questioning expression. I stared at him with a dumbfounded look for a good minute before going, “uh what?” Apparently, the pinky finger is some symbol for significant other. Who knew? He says my career and academic goals are great, but wanted to know when I’ll get a husband and give him grandbabies.

Umm, daddy dearest, there needs to be a guy in the picture for either of those things to happen. Unfortunately, there isn’t one. Woe to me. Until I find a guy, I think I’ll concentrate on my career path.

But I guess this situation really did make me wonder what the modern woman does at this fork in the road. Career or family? I’m greedy, so I’ll walk the path in between. What about you?

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Day Off, Gorramit

Have I ever mentioned that I hate working? I really do. The money is great, sure, but for the kind of crap I have to put up with? Well, that’s questionable. Take today for example.

For the first time in the five months that I’ve been working for this particular boss, I decided to take a sick/personal day so that I could get something medical appointments taken care of. It just so happens that all my doctors and dentists are located in the suburbs that surround D.C. rather than in the city itself. Not too much of surprising since that’s where I live. Apparently it made headlines for my boss when he realized that I would not be in the office, gasp!

I could some what understand his horror, since I’m his only employee, but I did offer to find a temp to take over for the day. He refused with fervor. Then he tried to get me to reschedule my appointments. Um… no. I get two weeks sick and two weeks vacation just like everyone else. I gave him notice and informed him he could dock it as a sick or vacation day. Nope. He told me to come in after my appointments.

Fine. I’ll come to the office to work for the last two hours of the day.

Now today is dooms day. I had a crazy morning of getting to all my appointments and making sure that they didn’t overlap. I had to even cancel a few things I had planned for today due to the gross rain and errands my parents demanded from me. No biggie, at least not until it came to my afternoon appointment. It was set for 2:15PM and run until about 3:47PM. My boss had asked me to call in afterwards to let him know what my ETA would be. He expected me in the office at 4:00PM. Hah! Not happening.

Anyways, I call, expecting him to tell me not to bother coming in to the office. Wrong again. It didn’t matter that I would have to drive to the metro station, find parking, and metro my ass over to the office since driving at rush hour was out of the question. It didn’t matter that by the time I got to the office, we would have to pretty much pack up to close shop. And for some effing reason, HE got offended when I tried to imply that I wanted the rest of the day off. Really?!

In the end I got to the office and finished the so-called huge pile of work he had for me. All of it. Now exactly what about that couldn’t wait until tomorrow? Whatever. If he docks today as a sick/vacation day, I will be pisst off, especially after all the hooplah he made about me coming in. After all, I am not some chump like Andy (The Devil Wears Prada).

What’s your boss like? What’s your worst experience with an employer?

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